They tell you to count backwards from 100 and honestly I don't remember if I make it out of the 90s. But, I do have that sinking thought of will I wake up? I think everyone has it has ever has surgery. Or so I hope I am not alone.
I should be asleep now. I have to be up at 4:45 and out the door by 5:15 but I can't sleep. I have had a number of surgeries in life, 6 to be exact and they are never anything less than stellar. From always puking to having a bladder that doesn't want to work, outpatient becomes a three day hospital stay. I have this normal routine I go through, Church, confession and then prep for the surgery.
I think the part that bothers me the most is that I didn't make it to Church or confession. My biggest fear with any surgery is dying. It just is. It was hard tonight talking to my momma. I talk to her everyday. Tonight she said I love you when she ended the call. I know many here that every call with their family but ours isn't that way. So to hear it, it was just hard. My second mom Aunt Jo Ann is here to take care of me, taking me to the hospital, taking care of me this weekend and keeping my momma in updated.
So here I lie in bed tonight, tears flowing, afraid. I'll say my prayers tonight and beg for God's forgiveness and mercy for the sinner that I am and I'll pray that this surgery does help me and ease my sinus pain.
For my family and friends, I love you all! As Grandma Schmidt would say, until we meet again....
Thursday, January 14, 2010
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Week 2 Update
Well, it is official DC and her sister kicked our ass this week. Of course, it happened to do with DC's miracle weight loss in one week. I secretly think she pulled a BL and was stocking up for her first weigh in so it looked like she did REALLY great in week two. We will see what Week 3 holds for her and the rest of us. Here is our beautiful graph for the week:
T minus 2
So I haven't blogged in a week. Honestly, it is because once again I have another sinus infection. It started Tuesday of last week with a headache. Since I am scheduled for surgery on the sinus on the 15th, I was only able to take Tylenol for the headache. Needless to say, it was still there on Wednesday and by Thursday, I just couldn't take it anymore.
I called the surgeon's office and left a message for the nurse. Told her what is going on and she called back and left a message saying they called in two prescriptions. One was an antibotic and the other for pain. Well, fast forward to me sitting down on the couch to look over these prescription. Holy cow, not sure what kind of headache they thought I had, but Vicodin was the cure for it, or so they thought.
So, Friday I was just wiped and called in for my shift at Lowe's. Honestly, I had to have DC to talk me into doing it. I always feel bad and think the last shift I didn't work was in August. Well, I later found out that I had been the fourth person that called out that night. :( Oops! But they covered.
I did open on Saturday and I looked like ass. They told me I looked like ass. I had dark circles under my eyes, I felt like my eyes were floating in fluid. It was good times. Sunday was a better day but Monday and today are more of the ass feeling. Except, now to couple the headache, my throat hurts cause of the crap that is draining down my throat! Ugh. I would love to call in tonight but it is my last shift until next Tuesday and working that one is kind of iffy.
I called the surgeon's office and left a message for the nurse. Told her what is going on and she called back and left a message saying they called in two prescriptions. One was an antibotic and the other for pain. Well, fast forward to me sitting down on the couch to look over these prescription. Holy cow, not sure what kind of headache they thought I had, but Vicodin was the cure for it, or so they thought.
So, Friday I was just wiped and called in for my shift at Lowe's. Honestly, I had to have DC to talk me into doing it. I always feel bad and think the last shift I didn't work was in August. Well, I later found out that I had been the fourth person that called out that night. :( Oops! But they covered.
I did open on Saturday and I looked like ass. They told me I looked like ass. I had dark circles under my eyes, I felt like my eyes were floating in fluid. It was good times. Sunday was a better day but Monday and today are more of the ass feeling. Except, now to couple the headache, my throat hurts cause of the crap that is draining down my throat! Ugh. I would love to call in tonight but it is my last shift until next Tuesday and working that one is kind of iffy.
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Friendly Competition
Back in September of last year, four of us embarked on this journey to lose weight. The winners received $, the losers paid up! We started at the same time as the Biggest Loser - Second Chances started. Obviously, we haven't done so well. But - it's a New Year and time for New Starts. So - here is where we are by team and what we have done so far. Got to protect the innocent, so you won't know who is playing but you can follow us along on our journey! I am on Team West and our gain is all on me.
Monday, January 4, 2010
LosinIt2010
Yep, if you are on the Weight Watchers site, this is me, LosinIt2010.
As with all New Year's come the New Year's Resolutions. So, the first one is of the year is this little issue I have called my weight. Yep, most will look at me and say, yeah well you don't look that bad, you don't need the Fat Club. But I do. So not only am I going to do this with the help of WW, but I am goin to do this with the help of you...my secret stalkers....I know that more than just Runner reads this.
So, Monday's at lunch time I will be attending the local WW near my work. Today's official weigh in...I even hate to say this out loud....191.2. Ugh. Really it isn't a shock. I have the scale at home and that number is just a few off from what the home scale said in the morning.
I know what I have to do and now I have people to hold me accountable every week and my first goal is hit my 5% goal...181.2....look out world, here I come!
As with all New Year's come the New Year's Resolutions. So, the first one is of the year is this little issue I have called my weight. Yep, most will look at me and say, yeah well you don't look that bad, you don't need the Fat Club. But I do. So not only am I going to do this with the help of WW, but I am goin to do this with the help of you...my secret stalkers....I know that more than just Runner reads this.
So, Monday's at lunch time I will be attending the local WW near my work. Today's official weigh in...I even hate to say this out loud....191.2. Ugh. Really it isn't a shock. I have the scale at home and that number is just a few off from what the home scale said in the morning.
I know what I have to do and now I have people to hold me accountable every week and my first goal is hit my 5% goal...181.2....look out world, here I come!
Saturday, January 2, 2010
*$^*(#)&*(^#*&#*)&*#_&R*)($#
That is what my knees are saying right now! The period of not riding my bike came to an end today and for whatever reason, my knees are screaming.
Runner and I were going to head out New Year's Day for the "Freeze Your Fanny Off" annual bike ride and after seeing that the morning temp was just around freezing and we were suppose to ride at 9, we both agreed that we were fair weather riders and the temps had to be at LEAST 45. :)
So, this afternoon, in a cool 52 degree's, we headed out for our normal ride - Parmer Lane. It is a ride done a million times over, but for whatever reason, my knees are killing me tonight. It took us an hour to go 14 miles, so it wasn't an earth shattering pace. Just ANOTHER sign that I need to get some weight off and get back into that beach body!
It was great riding with Runner today! It had been way too long since we had done anything together and it was just nice to catch up! We have decided that Saturday's will be our standing ride date. Of course, within reason and it has to be 45 without a terrible wind! :)
I am LOVIN 2010!
Runner and I were going to head out New Year's Day for the "Freeze Your Fanny Off" annual bike ride and after seeing that the morning temp was just around freezing and we were suppose to ride at 9, we both agreed that we were fair weather riders and the temps had to be at LEAST 45. :)
So, this afternoon, in a cool 52 degree's, we headed out for our normal ride - Parmer Lane. It is a ride done a million times over, but for whatever reason, my knees are killing me tonight. It took us an hour to go 14 miles, so it wasn't an earth shattering pace. Just ANOTHER sign that I need to get some weight off and get back into that beach body!
It was great riding with Runner today! It had been way too long since we had done anything together and it was just nice to catch up! We have decided that Saturday's will be our standing ride date. Of course, within reason and it has to be 45 without a terrible wind! :)
I am LOVIN 2010!
Small World leads to....
a low key New Year's Eve.
Right before Christmas I received a friend request from T (short for Trouble) on Facebook. T and I went to the same high school, only he was a year ahead of me. I knew of him, but didn't know him. I think he was more the resident bad boy and well, high school wasn't some of my finest days, my wall flower days.
From the friend request, T indicated that he is also in Austin and was interested to see other Pius peeps here. So, given that, I said why not, and accepted the friend request. He was back in Lincoln for the holidays and really we didn't really talk outside of the isolated comments on status updates.
Well, fast forward to Wednesday night. I was just settling in to watch the Husker bowl game and was doing a quick check of Facebook when I got an IM from T. Long story short, I had to pause and then rewatch the first half of the football game because T and were talking and I was not paying attention. I knew enough that we were winning but that was it.
T was visiting his sister in Pflugerville, so after declining going out for drinks for the second half, T came over here. Sadly, I must report that I didn't see much of the second half of the football game because we were more talking that watching.
I don't know how to put it. It is like a piece of home showed up on my door step. Someone that gets home, high school but gets why Austin is the BOMB and why you wouldn't want to move back! Even though we didn't know each other really in high school, it felt like we have known each other forever. It ended up being a waaaayyyy late night of catching up and because I was so flippin tired for work on Thursday, staying home on NYE was just fine by me.
Of course, as my luck has it, T is now out of the country for the next month enjoying a nice vacation where it is very warm! I did chat with him at midnight and can only assume that we will hang out again when he gets back.
Right before Christmas I received a friend request from T (short for Trouble) on Facebook. T and I went to the same high school, only he was a year ahead of me. I knew of him, but didn't know him. I think he was more the resident bad boy and well, high school wasn't some of my finest days, my wall flower days.
From the friend request, T indicated that he is also in Austin and was interested to see other Pius peeps here. So, given that, I said why not, and accepted the friend request. He was back in Lincoln for the holidays and really we didn't really talk outside of the isolated comments on status updates.
Well, fast forward to Wednesday night. I was just settling in to watch the Husker bowl game and was doing a quick check of Facebook when I got an IM from T. Long story short, I had to pause and then rewatch the first half of the football game because T and were talking and I was not paying attention. I knew enough that we were winning but that was it.
T was visiting his sister in Pflugerville, so after declining going out for drinks for the second half, T came over here. Sadly, I must report that I didn't see much of the second half of the football game because we were more talking that watching.
I don't know how to put it. It is like a piece of home showed up on my door step. Someone that gets home, high school but gets why Austin is the BOMB and why you wouldn't want to move back! Even though we didn't know each other really in high school, it felt like we have known each other forever. It ended up being a waaaayyyy late night of catching up and because I was so flippin tired for work on Thursday, staying home on NYE was just fine by me.
Of course, as my luck has it, T is now out of the country for the next month enjoying a nice vacation where it is very warm! I did chat with him at midnight and can only assume that we will hang out again when he gets back.
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