It is hard to believe that Thanksgiving has already come and gone this year. Even more amazing is that working two jobs is over a month past. I cannot imagine ever going back to working two jobs nor do I think I will ever take on that challenge! I think I can find other things to occupy my time!
Life definitely has had some interesting and good changes on my end. Part of me still has that apprehension that nags in the back of my mind but it is something that I am slowly working through. I like to think of it as baby steps in having a healthy relationship for a change. Yep, I said that word, relationship.
Now, I must put this disclaimer out there that we have not used the words boyfriend/girlfriend to describe our status. However, it is probably pretty safe to say that it is more than just dating. Since Halloween, NoDIY and I have been spending a lot of time together, or at least as much as works. Right now he lives 30 miles south of me which means if there is ZERO traffic, it takes at least 30 minutes to get there. But, since I have to pass through downtown, it is not very often that I have zero traffic opportunities. So, that said, we don't really spend much time together during the work week and spend most of the time together on the weekends.
Okay, well maybe I should say that we spend the entire weekend together, or close to it. It is either me going down to his place or him coming up to my house. We actually were talking last night that about how easy it is to be around each other and not feel like we have to be someone else or if he is at my house, I don't have that feeling of hosting a guest there. Of course the pups love him and I continue to joke with him that the dogs get more love than I do!
As for Thanksgiving in Austin, this year was different. I have a test that I need to take for work that my annual bonus is tied to. So, even though I LOVE my Houston family, I do like that money in the bank at year end and opted to stay in Austin so I could focus on studying. I did spend the day at NoDIY's house after doing a few loads of laundry and getting a four mile run in. We had a very non-traditional meal of steak, potatoes, chicken noodles and corn. Don't get me wrong, I did miss the turkey and all the family traditions but sometimes change is good too!
So that is my goings on right now. Life consists of work, studying, running, and a boy. I don't think life is too bad!
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Tuesday, November 29, 2011
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Just what the doctor ordered....
Some much needed R&R. I gave myself a mini-vacation, wasn't necessarily a "stay" vacation, but it was a nice one in which I didn't leave to travel back to Nebraska which is how 90% of the vacations go.
So, the stay vacation started Wednesday night. I was granted an early leave at 10 pm from Lowe's. Okay - it was a 1/2 hour early - but yeah! me!
Thursday was actually an exhausting day. I met my friend Skinny-Biotch at the gym. Yes, I said the nasty three letter word - GYM. I haven't blogged about Skinny-Biotch before but she is a partner in crime at Lowe's. Actually reminds me of myself in that she is early 30s, just bought her first house, and is holding her own in life without help! Of course, I call her the Biotch only because I was so afraid of her when she first came to our store, she seemed so mean. :) But now she is helping my inner skinny-bitch come out and making me be accountable at the gym.
After the gym workout and tour, I headed home for a quick shower. I was suppose to meet Vanilla Horndog for lunch just to catch up. It is funny because he was one of the guys that I posted back in my "Being" post. He knows that unless his life changes, he and I will be friends and nothing more until he has time to date. That said, he was on the north side of town this week for work and contacted me about meeting up just to catch up. Needless to say that he got caught on a Sales Call and lunch was not to be had. Of course, that is how things roll with Vanilla Horndog. The rest of the day, was doing errands, oil change for the car, hair cut, dentist and finally hit the road for Houston at 8 pm to visit Big Country.
Friday, the most important and only agenda for the day....Da Beach! Big Country & family, myself and some friends of theirs loaded up the vehicles and headed to Galvaston for the day. Even Finnegus was invited to come! A relaxing day was had playing in the surf, enjoying the sun and of course, nothing says beach like Captain Morgan.
Saturday, as they say plans change and when they change to your favor, whose going to complain? Not I. We ended up spending the day chilling at Big Country's house, sitting poolside and enjoying some fine beverages. In the pm, well it isn't a trip without Big Country whipping up something special and special it was. Don't get me wrong, the ribs were delicious....but that mushroom puff, yummmy for my tummy!
Sunday, well it was Easter Sunday and church was on the agenda. Rather than being different and finding a Catholic Church to go to, I opted to go to Church with Big Country, his family, my aunt and another cousin. I am not sure what affiliation the church was, but when you grew up a structured Catholic, wow different is all that comes to mind. I can see how it works for them but at the same time, I think I enjoy my structure. The afternoon was spent with Easter Egg hunts and relaxing! Unfortunately it also meant the end of my stay and it was time for Finnegus' and I to head back home.
Monday was my final partial vacation day! I headed to the gym at 8, made the most of the day with a nap, some yard work and cleaning all before I headed into Lowe's at 5:30 to return to the normal grind. However, what this vacation showed me was how much I need and want to be focused so Lowe's goes away! I forgot what lawn mowers in a neighborhood sounded like on a Saturday morning because I am never there....how great will that be!?!?
Ahhh, yes I am also going to steal from Runner her 30 days of blogging project...so look out for that!
So, the stay vacation started Wednesday night. I was granted an early leave at 10 pm from Lowe's. Okay - it was a 1/2 hour early - but yeah! me!
Thursday was actually an exhausting day. I met my friend Skinny-Biotch at the gym. Yes, I said the nasty three letter word - GYM. I haven't blogged about Skinny-Biotch before but she is a partner in crime at Lowe's. Actually reminds me of myself in that she is early 30s, just bought her first house, and is holding her own in life without help! Of course, I call her the Biotch only because I was so afraid of her when she first came to our store, she seemed so mean. :) But now she is helping my inner skinny-bitch come out and making me be accountable at the gym.
After the gym workout and tour, I headed home for a quick shower. I was suppose to meet Vanilla Horndog for lunch just to catch up. It is funny because he was one of the guys that I posted back in my "Being" post. He knows that unless his life changes, he and I will be friends and nothing more until he has time to date. That said, he was on the north side of town this week for work and contacted me about meeting up just to catch up. Needless to say that he got caught on a Sales Call and lunch was not to be had. Of course, that is how things roll with Vanilla Horndog. The rest of the day, was doing errands, oil change for the car, hair cut, dentist and finally hit the road for Houston at 8 pm to visit Big Country.
Friday, the most important and only agenda for the day....Da Beach! Big Country & family, myself and some friends of theirs loaded up the vehicles and headed to Galvaston for the day. Even Finnegus was invited to come! A relaxing day was had playing in the surf, enjoying the sun and of course, nothing says beach like Captain Morgan.
Saturday, as they say plans change and when they change to your favor, whose going to complain? Not I. We ended up spending the day chilling at Big Country's house, sitting poolside and enjoying some fine beverages. In the pm, well it isn't a trip without Big Country whipping up something special and special it was. Don't get me wrong, the ribs were delicious....but that mushroom puff, yummmy for my tummy!
Sunday, well it was Easter Sunday and church was on the agenda. Rather than being different and finding a Catholic Church to go to, I opted to go to Church with Big Country, his family, my aunt and another cousin. I am not sure what affiliation the church was, but when you grew up a structured Catholic, wow different is all that comes to mind. I can see how it works for them but at the same time, I think I enjoy my structure. The afternoon was spent with Easter Egg hunts and relaxing! Unfortunately it also meant the end of my stay and it was time for Finnegus' and I to head back home.
Monday was my final partial vacation day! I headed to the gym at 8, made the most of the day with a nap, some yard work and cleaning all before I headed into Lowe's at 5:30 to return to the normal grind. However, what this vacation showed me was how much I need and want to be focused so Lowe's goes away! I forgot what lawn mowers in a neighborhood sounded like on a Saturday morning because I am never there....how great will that be!?!?
Ahhh, yes I am also going to steal from Runner her 30 days of blogging project...so look out for that!
Friday, June 4, 2010
57 out of 62
Yup, that was the official count of days worked in a span of 62 days. So, needless to say, when I called in Friday morning and said I wasn't going to be in Friday night and Saturday morning for my shifts, I did NOT feel guilty in the slightest.
I have a master plan and I really want to be debt free as quickly as possible. So, in the big scheme of things, I don’t really notice that I work that many days. But, when I do take a day off, boy oh boy – I forgot how nice it is. I suppose it makes one appreciate it more.
We had an early roll out on Friday for the holiday weekend. That translated to me hitting the road at 1:30. I love it. I promptly headed home and enjoyed some quality nap time on the couch. Friday evening was spent working on the yard. Mowing, pulling weeds, edging, sweeping, watering, etc.
Saturday morning, well I thoroughly enjoyed sleeping in. Of course – having dogs that understand I might be sleeping in would have been even better. I honestly forgot what normal people do on Saturday mornings, little things like watering the yard, running errands, etc.
In the afternoon, it was time to head to Lake Limestone and Camp Curtis! For whatever reason, Finnegan was pacing the entire time but we did get there and even when we were getting close to Camp Curtis, Guinness started freaking out, like she remembered where we were. All and all it was a GREAT weekend. I got some reading in, some drinking in and a lot of sun time. Finnegan loved the water as much as Guinness and after the weekend, they will both now be called Finnegus. My Country Cuz can’t tell Guinness & Finn apart so he called them Finnegus the entire weekend.
Unfortunately the weekend came to an end much too quickly and I was greeted with a 15 hour work day on Tuesday.
I have a master plan and I really want to be debt free as quickly as possible. So, in the big scheme of things, I don’t really notice that I work that many days. But, when I do take a day off, boy oh boy – I forgot how nice it is. I suppose it makes one appreciate it more.
We had an early roll out on Friday for the holiday weekend. That translated to me hitting the road at 1:30. I love it. I promptly headed home and enjoyed some quality nap time on the couch. Friday evening was spent working on the yard. Mowing, pulling weeds, edging, sweeping, watering, etc.
Saturday morning, well I thoroughly enjoyed sleeping in. Of course – having dogs that understand I might be sleeping in would have been even better. I honestly forgot what normal people do on Saturday mornings, little things like watering the yard, running errands, etc.
In the afternoon, it was time to head to Lake Limestone and Camp Curtis! For whatever reason, Finnegan was pacing the entire time but we did get there and even when we were getting close to Camp Curtis, Guinness started freaking out, like she remembered where we were. All and all it was a GREAT weekend. I got some reading in, some drinking in and a lot of sun time. Finnegan loved the water as much as Guinness and after the weekend, they will both now be called Finnegus. My Country Cuz can’t tell Guinness & Finn apart so he called them Finnegus the entire weekend.
Unfortunately the weekend came to an end much too quickly and I was greeted with a 15 hour work day on Tuesday.
Monday, April 5, 2010
Shut Down Mode
Back home at my old gig, we referred to this mode when someone (we know who) was in one of those modes that didn't care and didn't do anything. Since the debacle with Sgt. Drama, I feel like I have been living in that mode. Work not so much, home life, yes. I am trying to kick myself out of it, but not making much headway.
My "holiday" weekend started Thursday at 2. Yeah for having a cool boss that sends us out early when it is dead. That being said - I still didn't get home until after 6. Went to the allergy doctor for my shots, then had the dreaded female doctor's appointment. They called and said "it's nothing to worry about" but I had an abnormal pap and they wanted to recheck in 3 months. Obviously they didn't read my chart to know my history of pre-cervical cancer changes, all the crap I went through about 10 years ago. But that is for another day. Of course, being April's Fools day - babies were being born left & right. That translated into my appointment being almost an hour late by the time the doctor saw me. It was short, definitely not sweet, and then he was off because a patient was having complications. I finally left the office at 5 from a 3:45 appointment. From there, it was off to get a haircut and my hour of Stylist’s therapy. Just a trim but love the entertainment that comes with it.
Friday I was in slow motion. But, I did manage to thoroughly clean two rooms of the house and start on the other two. Normally I just mop or swifter my wood floors. But in the movement of spring - I got on the hands & knees and scrubbed. Who knew one has so many dust bunnies. At 5, it was off to Lowe's.
Saturday was a beautiful day. I had to work until 3 at Lowe's and the shift really flew by just because it was so busy - everyone is in spring mode. I went home and worked on cleaning some more. Then I met Install back at Lowe's with Guinness & Finnegan. We headed to Town Lake to do the 4 mile trail. It was my first time taking both dogs and I don't know if I will take them both again. I think it took a 1/2 hour for them just to calm down and walk. Ugggh! I had a nice time with Install and we are going to make it a weekly Saturday thing.
Sunday - well I just couldn't find the heart to go to Church. I know - it is Jesus day. But, the Christers (Christmas/Easter goers) come out and it is this big family thing. I was by myself. No family to go with and everyone else was working. So, I skipped it. I do feel bad but until you are in that position, you just don't know what it is like. I did spend the day outside working in the yard once the drizzle cleared out. I was quite proud of my repairing of the fence. Finnegan has taken to eating through the fence to get to the dogs on the other side he does not like. So, I had to replace 8 boards and only managed to smack my thumb once. Yeah me! I potted knew flowers in my containers and made sure all my perennials were coming up. Ironically, a Hosta that died midsummer last year came back up but one that I had all summer hasn't reappeared. Weird.
After all that, I grilled myself a fine Ribeye and settled in with a cocktail and The Hangover. Definitely need to buy this movie! Love it!
My "holiday" weekend started Thursday at 2. Yeah for having a cool boss that sends us out early when it is dead. That being said - I still didn't get home until after 6. Went to the allergy doctor for my shots, then had the dreaded female doctor's appointment. They called and said "it's nothing to worry about" but I had an abnormal pap and they wanted to recheck in 3 months. Obviously they didn't read my chart to know my history of pre-cervical cancer changes, all the crap I went through about 10 years ago. But that is for another day. Of course, being April's Fools day - babies were being born left & right. That translated into my appointment being almost an hour late by the time the doctor saw me. It was short, definitely not sweet, and then he was off because a patient was having complications. I finally left the office at 5 from a 3:45 appointment. From there, it was off to get a haircut and my hour of Stylist’s therapy. Just a trim but love the entertainment that comes with it.
Friday I was in slow motion. But, I did manage to thoroughly clean two rooms of the house and start on the other two. Normally I just mop or swifter my wood floors. But in the movement of spring - I got on the hands & knees and scrubbed. Who knew one has so many dust bunnies. At 5, it was off to Lowe's.
Saturday was a beautiful day. I had to work until 3 at Lowe's and the shift really flew by just because it was so busy - everyone is in spring mode. I went home and worked on cleaning some more. Then I met Install back at Lowe's with Guinness & Finnegan. We headed to Town Lake to do the 4 mile trail. It was my first time taking both dogs and I don't know if I will take them both again. I think it took a 1/2 hour for them just to calm down and walk. Ugggh! I had a nice time with Install and we are going to make it a weekly Saturday thing.
Sunday - well I just couldn't find the heart to go to Church. I know - it is Jesus day. But, the Christers (Christmas/Easter goers) come out and it is this big family thing. I was by myself. No family to go with and everyone else was working. So, I skipped it. I do feel bad but until you are in that position, you just don't know what it is like. I did spend the day outside working in the yard once the drizzle cleared out. I was quite proud of my repairing of the fence. Finnegan has taken to eating through the fence to get to the dogs on the other side he does not like. So, I had to replace 8 boards and only managed to smack my thumb once. Yeah me! I potted knew flowers in my containers and made sure all my perennials were coming up. Ironically, a Hosta that died midsummer last year came back up but one that I had all summer hasn't reappeared. Weird.
After all that, I grilled myself a fine Ribeye and settled in with a cocktail and The Hangover. Definitely need to buy this movie! Love it!
Monday, January 18, 2010
Merry Christmas from Guinness’ Dog House
Happy holidays from my dog house to yours!
Happy Holidays to you and your family from Pflugerville, TX. What a difference a year makes! Mom is still pretty busy with work and now always having to watch Finnegan (more of that later) so I would give it another whirl this year for the family letter. I still remain the princess of the bunch and have many tales to tell! Hopefully you enjoy our stories from the past year as much as we did with the activities.
H.A.P.P.Y H.O.L.I.D.A.Y.S.
Horror, Little Horror – The big news of the year is the newest member to my dog house, Finnegan (formerly known as Toodles). Mom found him at a rescue shelter and thought he needed to live with us. He is a monster. A four month old puppy that makes me look like a saint! He does like to chew on mom’s things STILL and even though I pretend to be annoyed with him, I love having him around.
April – Girls week! Grandma and Aunt Jo Ann came to visit us in April. Although for some reasons Finnegan and I had to go stay with Dr. Skinner while they toured Hill Country. Finnegan was the hog of attention while we were there. But I still love visiting. The following weekend we went to see our family in Houston. Finn & I agree…leftover grease from the fried Turkey is yummy.
Painting – LOTS of painting. Grandpa came to visit us in July to help mom finish the painting upstairs. She wasn’t making very much progress on her own. Finn & I loved it because Grandpa was at the house every day so we could play. He is so good he finished ALL the rooms upstairs and the laundry room in less than a week!
Planning – Mom did a lot of planning with her brothers and family and pulled over a HUGE surprise party for Grandma’s 55th birthday! Grandma didn’t even know we were coming to visit and she was so surprised when we greeted her at the door. Even Aunt Jo Ann & Uncle Oak were in on the surprise! We had fun playing with our friends Bailey, Chloe, & Morgan while we were back!
Yes! – Those are the words we said when mom’s friend Kris asked if they could come to see us for vacation! Kris, Ron & Kyra came to stay with us. They got to do fun things like Sea World, the Schlitterbaughn and shopping but mom wouldn’t take us! Kyra kept us entertained and we missed her as soon as the car left the drive way!
Heaven – Grandma S was called home to heaven in June. Grandma had it planned out and it happened during our trip home to Nebraska. It extended our trip for a day. She definitely will be missed and taught mom a lot about faith! I will definitely miss all that yummy food she would sneak me when Mom wasn’t looking!
Opportunities – Mom had lots of opportunities to do her new work outs of choice, swimming, biking & running. She trained with Team & Training and did her first Triathlon in May! She enjoyed it so much she did 3 different ones! Finn and I loved the running part because she would take us with her! Our godmom, Michelle, even flew in from Maryland to cheer on Mom for her big race – the Capital of Texas Triathlon! She took lots of pictures of mom in action and it was a visit long over do!
Insulin – In January of this year, Uncle Shane was diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes. It was definitely some frightening times and he ended up in the hospital for three days. Of course, now the concern is, will mom get it? With Grandma M (Type 2), Uncle Gene (Type 1), Grandma S (Type 2), Shane (Type 1) it definitely is a possibility!
Dates – Mom still continues to date guys but still hasn’t found one that Finn & I approve of. Her and Kevin broke up in February but still remain friends and he comes to visit now and then. She dated Brent for awhile and we thought she might be on to something, but no luck. We are still searching for a dad and are not settling for less than the best!
Ahhhh Cousin – My mom’s cousins Courtney, Amy & Damon all came to visit us Labor Day weekend. Damon did the Austin Triathlon while the girls cheered him on! They spent a day tubing the River and did the trip to the Salt Lick. They had a LOT of fun and Courtney & Damon kept telling mom she was going to take Finnegan home with her! I would of so loved it but for some reason he was still here when they left.
Yea Babies – We love babies and the Schmidt clan finally has some we can play with! We met Shane’s son Gage when we visited Nebraska in June! Then for Thanksgiving, mom was always playing with Ali – cousin Luke & Sara’s little girl. I made sure to sit right by them when mom was giving her a bottle. She is still MY mom. Plus, next year there will be even MORE little one’s for us to play with since Cloe will have a baby at her house by then and Cousin Brenda will also have a baby too!
Security – Mom is still secure in both of her jobs. She still is working at National Financial Partners but moved to a new group when the company did some downsizing. She still does her old job but also takes support calls for general website technical questions as well as Microsoft Office questions. After a year, she finally has a set schedule at Lowe’s. It definitely made things easier for Finn & I, well mom too. She works on Tuesday & Friday nights and then opens on Saturday & Sundays. She is not so tired on her new schedule, even though she still works the same 20 hours. Plus, we can get in more walks this way!
A special message from Mom
I hope this finds that each of you have had a joyous holiday season and a great start to 2010! Life in Texas is good and gets better and better each day! My house is finally done on the inside which means that in 2010, the foucs will be on the outside! I pray each of you has a healthy & Blessed 2010!
Jenn, Guinness & Finnegan
Happy Holidays to you and your family from Pflugerville, TX. What a difference a year makes! Mom is still pretty busy with work and now always having to watch Finnegan (more of that later) so I would give it another whirl this year for the family letter. I still remain the princess of the bunch and have many tales to tell! Hopefully you enjoy our stories from the past year as much as we did with the activities.
H.A.P.P.Y H.O.L.I.D.A.Y.S.
Horror, Little Horror – The big news of the year is the newest member to my dog house, Finnegan (formerly known as Toodles). Mom found him at a rescue shelter and thought he needed to live with us. He is a monster. A four month old puppy that makes me look like a saint! He does like to chew on mom’s things STILL and even though I pretend to be annoyed with him, I love having him around.
April – Girls week! Grandma and Aunt Jo Ann came to visit us in April. Although for some reasons Finnegan and I had to go stay with Dr. Skinner while they toured Hill Country. Finnegan was the hog of attention while we were there. But I still love visiting. The following weekend we went to see our family in Houston. Finn & I agree…leftover grease from the fried Turkey is yummy.
Painting – LOTS of painting. Grandpa came to visit us in July to help mom finish the painting upstairs. She wasn’t making very much progress on her own. Finn & I loved it because Grandpa was at the house every day so we could play. He is so good he finished ALL the rooms upstairs and the laundry room in less than a week!
Planning – Mom did a lot of planning with her brothers and family and pulled over a HUGE surprise party for Grandma’s 55th birthday! Grandma didn’t even know we were coming to visit and she was so surprised when we greeted her at the door. Even Aunt Jo Ann & Uncle Oak were in on the surprise! We had fun playing with our friends Bailey, Chloe, & Morgan while we were back!
Yes! – Those are the words we said when mom’s friend Kris asked if they could come to see us for vacation! Kris, Ron & Kyra came to stay with us. They got to do fun things like Sea World, the Schlitterbaughn and shopping but mom wouldn’t take us! Kyra kept us entertained and we missed her as soon as the car left the drive way!
Heaven – Grandma S was called home to heaven in June. Grandma had it planned out and it happened during our trip home to Nebraska. It extended our trip for a day. She definitely will be missed and taught mom a lot about faith! I will definitely miss all that yummy food she would sneak me when Mom wasn’t looking!
Opportunities – Mom had lots of opportunities to do her new work outs of choice, swimming, biking & running. She trained with Team & Training and did her first Triathlon in May! She enjoyed it so much she did 3 different ones! Finn and I loved the running part because she would take us with her! Our godmom, Michelle, even flew in from Maryland to cheer on Mom for her big race – the Capital of Texas Triathlon! She took lots of pictures of mom in action and it was a visit long over do!
Insulin – In January of this year, Uncle Shane was diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes. It was definitely some frightening times and he ended up in the hospital for three days. Of course, now the concern is, will mom get it? With Grandma M (Type 2), Uncle Gene (Type 1), Grandma S (Type 2), Shane (Type 1) it definitely is a possibility!
Dates – Mom still continues to date guys but still hasn’t found one that Finn & I approve of. Her and Kevin broke up in February but still remain friends and he comes to visit now and then. She dated Brent for awhile and we thought she might be on to something, but no luck. We are still searching for a dad and are not settling for less than the best!
Ahhhh Cousin – My mom’s cousins Courtney, Amy & Damon all came to visit us Labor Day weekend. Damon did the Austin Triathlon while the girls cheered him on! They spent a day tubing the River and did the trip to the Salt Lick. They had a LOT of fun and Courtney & Damon kept telling mom she was going to take Finnegan home with her! I would of so loved it but for some reason he was still here when they left.
Yea Babies – We love babies and the Schmidt clan finally has some we can play with! We met Shane’s son Gage when we visited Nebraska in June! Then for Thanksgiving, mom was always playing with Ali – cousin Luke & Sara’s little girl. I made sure to sit right by them when mom was giving her a bottle. She is still MY mom. Plus, next year there will be even MORE little one’s for us to play with since Cloe will have a baby at her house by then and Cousin Brenda will also have a baby too!
Security – Mom is still secure in both of her jobs. She still is working at National Financial Partners but moved to a new group when the company did some downsizing. She still does her old job but also takes support calls for general website technical questions as well as Microsoft Office questions. After a year, she finally has a set schedule at Lowe’s. It definitely made things easier for Finn & I, well mom too. She works on Tuesday & Friday nights and then opens on Saturday & Sundays. She is not so tired on her new schedule, even though she still works the same 20 hours. Plus, we can get in more walks this way!
A special message from Mom
I hope this finds that each of you have had a joyous holiday season and a great start to 2010! Life in Texas is good and gets better and better each day! My house is finally done on the inside which means that in 2010, the foucs will be on the outside! I pray each of you has a healthy & Blessed 2010!
Jenn, Guinness & Finnegan
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Irony
So - today we received the following email card from the president of our company....
So, I am going to assume by this email that by Happy, she means that it will be better times in 2009. By Healthy, since our health benefits are increasing by 174.47%, I will need to be health just to afford them. By Prosperous - I should expect at minimum a 2.82% increase in my salary just so I can make the same I did back in 2007 when I started here.
Season Greetings to you too lady!
Just a lot of blah
Yes, it is true. I have been in some sort of funk for at least the month of December if not longer. No idea what it is from, what triggers it but it is there. I wouldn't say that it is obviously noticeable but the ones that are around me all the time have noticed, always asking if I am okay. But, those that aren't, probably don't even have a clue unless I said something. I am sure it is a combination of things and really who knows. I just know that even typing this blog, I feel the urge to cry. Why? I really don't know.
I went home over Thanksgiving and spent the holiday with family. Maybe that triggered it, maybe it just made it worse. I am sure some are thinking - how can a Holiday with family make you blah? Or some are going to say - move home. But really it is a combination of things from home that are contributing to it.
One - I am 35, absolutely zero prospects in the dating arena and feel like I get closer and closer to the prospect of never being a parent. The dreaded biological clock factor. Now I know that weighs on me but to contribute to it, I go home to my parents house full of babies and soon to be babies. Both my younger brothers are parents (or by Feb) and here I am alone and going to be known as the Favorite Aunt. Don't get me wrong, happy for them, really sucks for me.
Two - While it is "home" it no longer is home. To some degree, I don't feel as if I belong. Most friends are too busy and involved in their own lives that I don't see them when I am on short trips back. Sometimes when I do get to see them, it almost feels like it is a formal meeting and I really don't know them anymore. For others, the only way they can see me is if I fit myself into their activities, so is that really a friend? Parties at my parent’s house I feel like the flower on the wall watching everyone else interact because they are around each other more. I normally get the hi, give me a rundown of your life in 5 minutes or less attitude. Really I feel as if I left, no one would notice one way or another.
So - whether the trip home created the snowball or just helped it gain momentum...it is rolling full steam ahead. I had zero ambition to put up Holiday decorations because to me it meant finding time to put them up only to find time to take them down again. Well, Mama would have no such thoughts and so it is all up. Although, I still haven't made the effort to find the extension cord to plug the tree in. I had to put the tree on the landing going upstairs so I could use the baby gate to keep Finn away from it. To him, it represents a new chew toy.
Life here for the most part is good. I just have that blah mood and choose to isolate myself than be around others. The thought of going out for drinks after a Lowe's night is not something I want to do just because it ends up being a complaining fest about Lowe's for the group and really, it is a part time job to me. If I am that miserable and need to waste a good drink just to complain about it, I need something new - so I opt to go home.
My weight is really bothering me too. I am stuck in this yoyo between 188 and 186...yep officially obese according to the BMI. It doesn't matter what I eat, how much I exercise, it just bobs back and forth. But, if it kills me - it is coming off before the cruise in March.
This year will also mark my first Christmas on my own. No family is visiting and I will not be heading to Houston to spend it with the Curtis' clan. Really it is just a personal choice not to go. I am pretty sure I will be at work until 3 on Christmas Eve. Then because of my set schedule at Lowe's, I open the day after Christmas. I didn't attempt to ask it off since I was the only one to get the weekend after Thanksgiving off from the store. So, spending 6 hours in the car for less than a 24 hour visit, well, just doesn't seem worth it.
The other factor that is there and shouldn't be is the EX. He violated probation once again and is looking at going to jail for up to a year. I know he has made his own choices and it is not my fault, but at some level, I feel accountable. I know I couldn't have done anything different, he had the problem but well it is just there.
So that is the blahness in my life right now. Probably as depressing as it gets but yep that is my pathetic life at this moment. I know, if I told Mama, she would tell me to call Hypno lady so she can cast me into a happy trance again. Really, I just feel like I have been in a PMS mood for a month now. Really sucks and really I should call Hypno lady. Maybe I should just go and make that my Christmas present to myself and to the people stuck around me on a daily basis!
So, if you don't get a Christmas Card this year, do not be alarmed, do not be offended. I have no urge to write a Christmas card letter and make my life seem so great because right now I don't feel that way. Plus, again, the urge or writing out Christmas cards does not strike a chord either. I want to be true to me and doing any sort of letter/card would be fake because no one wants a bah humbug letter!
I went home over Thanksgiving and spent the holiday with family. Maybe that triggered it, maybe it just made it worse. I am sure some are thinking - how can a Holiday with family make you blah? Or some are going to say - move home. But really it is a combination of things from home that are contributing to it.
One - I am 35, absolutely zero prospects in the dating arena and feel like I get closer and closer to the prospect of never being a parent. The dreaded biological clock factor. Now I know that weighs on me but to contribute to it, I go home to my parents house full of babies and soon to be babies. Both my younger brothers are parents (or by Feb) and here I am alone and going to be known as the Favorite Aunt. Don't get me wrong, happy for them, really sucks for me.
Two - While it is "home" it no longer is home. To some degree, I don't feel as if I belong. Most friends are too busy and involved in their own lives that I don't see them when I am on short trips back. Sometimes when I do get to see them, it almost feels like it is a formal meeting and I really don't know them anymore. For others, the only way they can see me is if I fit myself into their activities, so is that really a friend? Parties at my parent’s house I feel like the flower on the wall watching everyone else interact because they are around each other more. I normally get the hi, give me a rundown of your life in 5 minutes or less attitude. Really I feel as if I left, no one would notice one way or another.
So - whether the trip home created the snowball or just helped it gain momentum...it is rolling full steam ahead. I had zero ambition to put up Holiday decorations because to me it meant finding time to put them up only to find time to take them down again. Well, Mama would have no such thoughts and so it is all up. Although, I still haven't made the effort to find the extension cord to plug the tree in. I had to put the tree on the landing going upstairs so I could use the baby gate to keep Finn away from it. To him, it represents a new chew toy.
Life here for the most part is good. I just have that blah mood and choose to isolate myself than be around others. The thought of going out for drinks after a Lowe's night is not something I want to do just because it ends up being a complaining fest about Lowe's for the group and really, it is a part time job to me. If I am that miserable and need to waste a good drink just to complain about it, I need something new - so I opt to go home.
My weight is really bothering me too. I am stuck in this yoyo between 188 and 186...yep officially obese according to the BMI. It doesn't matter what I eat, how much I exercise, it just bobs back and forth. But, if it kills me - it is coming off before the cruise in March.
This year will also mark my first Christmas on my own. No family is visiting and I will not be heading to Houston to spend it with the Curtis' clan. Really it is just a personal choice not to go. I am pretty sure I will be at work until 3 on Christmas Eve. Then because of my set schedule at Lowe's, I open the day after Christmas. I didn't attempt to ask it off since I was the only one to get the weekend after Thanksgiving off from the store. So, spending 6 hours in the car for less than a 24 hour visit, well, just doesn't seem worth it.
The other factor that is there and shouldn't be is the EX. He violated probation once again and is looking at going to jail for up to a year. I know he has made his own choices and it is not my fault, but at some level, I feel accountable. I know I couldn't have done anything different, he had the problem but well it is just there.
So that is the blahness in my life right now. Probably as depressing as it gets but yep that is my pathetic life at this moment. I know, if I told Mama, she would tell me to call Hypno lady so she can cast me into a happy trance again. Really, I just feel like I have been in a PMS mood for a month now. Really sucks and really I should call Hypno lady. Maybe I should just go and make that my Christmas present to myself and to the people stuck around me on a daily basis!
So, if you don't get a Christmas Card this year, do not be alarmed, do not be offended. I have no urge to write a Christmas card letter and make my life seem so great because right now I don't feel that way. Plus, again, the urge or writing out Christmas cards does not strike a chord either. I want to be true to me and doing any sort of letter/card would be fake because no one wants a bah humbug letter!
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Go BIG red!!!
Life on this end is good! I am loving my new set schedule at Lowe's. It gives me days off and still allows me the freedom to do other things. This past weekend, I dragged Runner along with me to Waco, really Beverly Hills, to go to the Nebraska vs Baylor game. We met up with Hamersky and clan for a brewhaha before the game. I miss Hamersky but not the stress that came with the job we had!
Okay - all I can say is the weekend was a number of firsts. I have never been to a stadium where there was no one there for the Home team. My dad & brother thought we were crazy because we didn't go over to the other side and sit in the front row. It was a first that we part less than a block away from the stadium within two hours of kick off. That there was crazy. It was also my first sober football game...still not sure if that was good or bad.
It was a gorgeous, sunny day! Probably too sunny because my darn head was burned. But one should never complain of a nice tan the first of November! The Huskers played a little better than the Iowa State game, at least won! But I think one fellow Husker summed it up best when we recovered a fumble close to the end zone...kick the field goal....we are guaranteed points. Of course - the offensive went out and threw an interception.
We made it back to town in time for trick or treaters and Finn was sad to see the door close every time the kids left. To him they were there to play.
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